I guess I just feel like writing right now.  It happens from time to time, when I am not inundated with mad desires to kill in the context of an online game.
     It was a typical day at the cafe, where I did my napkin art, and tried to interact with people.  It didn't work too well.  No one gives a crap about my art or me there.  Plus, they don't have any money to buy art, which is why they don't even bother to look at what I am doing.
     Oh well.
      *uck 'em.
     It still feels weird that I can't really swear on my own blog unless it is set to adult, at which point the advertisers won't touch it with a ten foot pole.
     Oh well, moving right along...
     I'm having a good life, and I'm hoping I will have some good sales tonight.  It is Friday, and maybe I will sell $100 of my napkin art.  Or maybe, I will sell $30 worth.  I never know what the outcome will be.  My main job is just to show up, and to see what happens.  This isn't always easy, to get out of bed, bicycle across town with all of my art stuff, and then sit there for six hours and paint.  The beer and the company makes it worthwhile when there aren't many sales.
     Yeah, thank goodness I have some friends up at the bar.  From going there every night, I've met some good people.  I've been so busy with work and school in my adult life, that I didn't have too much time for friendships, so I am glad I am making up for lost time.
     Am I lonely?  I don't know.  I like to be alone...all the time.  I enjoy it, because I can hear myself think without interruption.
     In the last year, since I started my napkin art at the bar, the loneliness and sadness has mostly gone away.  The alcohol has made me very happy, and I enjoy social interactions every night.
     I'm kind of past the point where women want to go out with me.  They know better than to date me.  So, I just want one thing from them...their money.  Every once in a while I get a hug, but that is about it.  If this wasn't a general audience blog, I'd go into lurid details about my private life, lol.
     So, the napkin art started because I had nothing to lose.  It was a risk that has paid off.  I pay my rent through sales of napkin art.  Awesome, huh?
     Honestly, I can't sell enough.  I usually have an inventory of about 400 napkins, which is worth about $2000.  I like to have a lot of art on me so people can have a lot to choose from.
     My favorite kind of customer is a person who picks out twenty, and drops a 'C-note'.  It has happened a couple of times.

     What is life about?  I don't know.  Living life to the fullest is what it is about, however you interpret that.  I usually gain satisfaction from using my time well throughout the day, and getting a lot done.  It makes me feel good.
     To be honest, I'm a coffee achiever.  I became prolific when I started drinking coffee.

     Anyway, I would love to become a full-time blogger, and make $25,000 a year just doing blogs.  That would be awesome.  I've heard of a guy that does that.  Not many people read my blogs, but maybe someday they will.  The only way to find out is to do it and see what happens.  You can't control if people will read your blogs, but you can control how many blogs you put out, and what the content is.
     In the history of printing, there has never been such a thing as 'instant publishing', and it is fantastic.  To be able to write, and to have your work available all over the world is incredible.  I know a lot of people take this for granted at this point, but I don't.

     So, I am forty-five now.  Life is a little easier now, because I am done with school, and I can do what I want.  Also, I am self-employed, and that is fun.  I'm barely scraping by month to month, but I am having the time of my life, so truck it.  Using a replacement word often works instead of swearing in a blunt manner.

     I'm going to play some online games.  Thanks for reading.